A struggle is coming!
Unfortunately, that struggle for me, has been an ongoing battle for many years.
I am working to embrace my limits.
The reality of it is, I have tried for years to avoid being ill. I have worked hard to be successful, I have worked hard for the things I want. I work hard for the sake of working.
Unfortunately, all that has brought me is, the realization that I can not do that forever.
I happily accept my pagan beliefs, struggle to embrace the teachings of Buddha, strive to be like my dogs and work harder than I would ever expect from anyone.
The hardest thing I have ever done, is admit that I have limits.
Limits are for people who don't know how to push them selves. They are for people who don't want to push a little harder for success. Limits are for people who don't want to know exactly what they are capable of.
Ok, that's actually bull shit.
The reality is, limits are for people who are smart enough to know when to say when.
Apparently, that has not been me.
Recently, several things have added up to make me realize, that I have to embrace my limits.
I have to accept when to say when and I have to be smart enough to realize... I can not do it all.
Not an easy path for me, I assure you.
I have however, started to take steps in that direction.
Work has always been an all consuming drive for me. It has always been my solace, my balm, my reason for... so many things.
Unfortunately, it has also been a driving force for my deteriorating health.
So, with that in mind, I have started to take steps in putting myself first and accepting that there are limits to what one should expect of themselves.
So, I start the journey of accepting and embracing that I too have limits.
